I’ve cried every single night. He always leaves me right when i need him most. I dont know what i’ve done. I’m just a horrible person and probably deserve this. My best friend hurts me. And I’m so emotionally drained. I miss him so much. Because I love him and wont admit it to anyone. Not even myself. I won’t admit that I love my best friend. I dont even know if he’s still my friend anymore.