Kick my fucking ass

Me: 16 years, van born and raised, single, fitness, sun, nails, designers, new york, makeup, hemp, play soccer since the age of 5, actor, grade 11 in highschool. Pescetarian since 7/27/11
Stats: SW - 147 CW - 125 GW1 - 130 GW2 - 125 5'6.5 SBS: 32DD CBS: n/a GW1 - 130 REACHED!

The worst

I’ve cried every single night. He always leaves me right when i need him most. I dont know what i’ve done. I’m just a horrible person and probably deserve this. My best friend hurts me. And I’m so emotionally drained. I miss him so much. Because I love him and wont admit it to anyone. Not even myself. I won’t admit that I love my best friend. I dont even know if he’s still my friend anymore.